FORGIVENESS

This picture stands for so many things. I am celebrating Christmas with my youngest daughter who very well could have been taken away from me that night in April a year and a half ago.It also represents a little girl who might have  spent her whole life inside a hospital without a family. But what this picture really stands for is a whole lot more. For that past year and a half after her accident, Jill was not feeling any better. She hurt all the time. She had pain in her groin area from her pelvis that she had broken. She had back pain as well as pain going down both of her legs and feet, and pain in her hand. She also had some cognitive issues, so her school work was not easy for her like it was before. Jill tried every type of therapy imaginable. She tried acupuncture, aquatic therapy, biofeedback, and traditional therapy. We went from doctor to doctor trying to find out what we could do to ease her pain. No one really had an answer. The bones were healed, and she could have nerve or muscle tissue damage. They all tried to prescribe her narcotics, but she would take them very sparingly because she did not want to become addicted to them. While she was going through all of this, she had another issue she needed to deal with. She really wanted to meet the man who was driving the pick up truck, because she wanted to tell him that she forgave him. She made a copy of herself and Jasmine sitting on Santa Claus's lap, composed a letter and mailed it to him. She wanted to let him know that everything happens for a reason and that something very wonderful came out of this tragic event. She thought that if he felt guilty, that this would make him feel better. He has never responded to her, and that has left her wondering if he really felt bad at all. I think that if she could meet him face to face, she could put this all behind her. It's like a piece of unfinished business I guess. Jill is a very special person for setting her own feelings aside to write to a stranger who changed the course of her life forever. Once again, Jill truly amazes me.